I will be the first to admit, although I’m wonderful at managing projects, I’m not terribly organized. My work desk was a mess, my purse usually has a bunch of crap in it, and I don’t really want to discuss my bedroom’s state of appearance. However, I can spot check like a motherfucker, and know exactly what a situation needs to become the MVP of situations. I think of everything, and my attention to detail is pretty awesome. But that’s when it comes to my professional life. When it comes to my personal life, everything is a big ol’ hot mess.
I’d like to be more organized, at least in appearance. I have no idea how much longer I’ll be living with my parents. I have to be honest with myself about this. Right now, I’m unemployed, with no prospective job in sight, and even after I do find gainful employment, I may not be able to afford a place right away, so there is a real possibility that I’ll be stuck in this 9th ring of hell for at least another year or two. Disappointing and heartbreaking, but again, I have to be realistic about my situation in life. With that said, I really need to start organizing my tiny bedroom in a way that makes things more accessible. Right now I’m living out of suitcases and storage bins, and I really can’t take it anymore. Having such a chaotic physical space is really beginning to make me feel like a loser, and total failure at life. How did I get to this point? Initially I didn’t want to invest money into a space I’m always trying to run away from, but now, I have to admit that I’ve been trying to run away for over a decade, and I’m still here. So, time to face facts, face reality, and do the reorganizing I should have just done back in 2004 when I graduated from college. Granted, I had high hopes back then, I thought I’d be moving out within a year. But crippling credit card debt, student loan debt, and life expenses coupled with a low paying job made that dream impossible.
So here I sit in the year 2015 wondering what reasonable, manageable things I can do to make myself feel better, and less insane. I’ve decided that this will be it. Like I said in a previous blog, it’s important for me to focus on the small things I can change, in hopes that it will distract me from the huge things that I can’t. This will also give me an opportunity to flex my small space décor expertise- of which I really have none. One day, I’ll have to do this for real, for an entire apartment, so it’s best to get my practice in now.
Just trying to stay as positive as possible.
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